Love World #7

There is no such things as love if u don't understand and feel what it is..
I just had a fight with my GF..
sometimes i don't understand her, and that goes same for her..
i just wanted her to care bout me more.. and she want me to care her too..
After the fight.. we like do not noe how to cool down..
The atmosphere gone worse.. xD
I dont think there is stil love in us.. This ain't love..
But later on.. we comfort each other.. we both cry..
then i know.. we are caring each other.. we do the best for our half..
This come to my mind that i wanna write it here..
For me, this still ain't love.. This is what we call it as..

TRUE LOVE..

Tired Tired Tired #6

today so tired le.. but stil can work.. hahaha.. work so late today.. not vy la.. but oso quite late edi.. tired tired.. reach back home edi 8pm.. then go mam mam lo.. my mum say go out eat wor.. but no idea where to go.. then v decide go 1u for dinner.. actually go for japanese food de.. but then v decide go for chili's.. d japanese restaurant so many ppl le.. stil hav to q-up.. lazy to wait la.. cuz tat time edi 9pm liao.. hahaha.. chili's is a nice place.. v celebrate my mum bday.. haiz.. i haven out my salary yet.. if out edi.. i sure wil giv my mum bigger pocket moeny tis month.. thx GOD for givin me such a good mum.. love her.. always by her side.. i wanted to treat her even more beta.. slowly 1day by 1 day.. love u mum.. love u..

Tired again#5

tired again.. back home from chai xia house is already 3am in the mornin.. T.T 7am hav to awake to fetch my beloved student to church for guitar lesson.. im totally totally dry up.. i almost aslp at church.. cuz after p&w i went back to my sit.. tat area is totally making me slpy.. no light.. then quite cold.. d best spot for slpin.. later i cannot tahan edi.. i went to toilet n go sit behind.. it seems beta.. today is a tired day oso.. is not easy to rest after u been so dry up.. u nid a long rest.. u nid to slowly rest.. if not.. it feels lik same thing.. lik u din rest at all.. btw.. i write tis two post on d same time.. i reli empty minded.. reli slpy.. but if i don write it.. i nid to write 3post.. walao.. cannot la.. hahaha.. its time for me to rest.. i reli reli nid to rest.. so tired lar.. hahaha.. nite ppl..

ss2 murni #4

wow.. im so tired today.. sry for d late blog.. so so tired.. last nite i went to ss2 murni.. so many ppl le.. but tis is not d main sub la.. mornin i went to waterfall with carmen family.. so tired.. don dare to play those waterfall water.. looks so dirty.. a bit lik mud.. hahaha.. at least is an outin with family.. b4 tat day.. i went to wong kok for gathering with cell member.. then after tat.. goin for 2nd round with my frens.. go McD yam X.. hahaha.. so late oni back home.. v chat alot of things.. cars.. fren.. juz anyting tat pass through our mind.. hehehe.. reach home around 3.. tats y my post delay a day liao.. so so tired.. hav to awkae early for waterfall on d next day.. walao.. so tahan ah.. hahaha.. nite stil hav to go church rehersal for sunday service.. im goin to become robocop liao.. then after tat.. ss2murni with frens.. after tat.. go chai xia house for chit chat.. walao.. i oso cant imagine tat im so powerful.. totally is full str.. hahaha..

sad #3

today i so noob again.. seems lik always forget bout something.. weird ya.. juz lik not listenin carefully.. not using d heart to hear wat ppl say.. izit my heart or is tis my personality.. i dono at all.. i wish i could b more alert.. be more caring.. wat should i do.. im not sure wat i thinkin.. wat i want to do.. i juz noe i nid to love her more.. but how.. how to do it? m i always sad or unsatisfied hav 2put it away? or mayb im doin the wrong thing.. y m i sad? y m i unsatisfied? i don understand her? or mayb.. i din see through her heart? i nid to understand her feelings.. i nid to be more caring.. i nid to hear wat her heart wanted to say.. i nid to make my mind same lik her.. but i noe i haven done all tis yet.. izit my prob or hers? i think mayb is mine.. i reli nid her patience to teach me.. i no i noob.. but i do reli hope she stil got hope for me.. i don wan her to let go of me.. i scare.. i scare.. GOD reli put a wonderful woman by my side.. she care me.. she noe my nids.. she love me.. she scold me to let me learn.. she reli noe my situation.. she is reli 1of the best woman.. i love her.. i don wish to lose her.. guys reli nid to step back.. n say d sry thing.. i did so many things tat hurt her.. i reli dono bout it.. i stil nid experience.. i tot a joke reli a joke.. but some joke reli cant spit it out a bit.. it reli wil bring disaster.. now i noe.. i slowly understand.. she make me more understand bout her.. i beg for her forgiveness.. i reli ain't a good bf.. but i noe.. she loves me.. she wil teach me.. n GOD wil take care of me too.. b4 i b a husband of some1.. i reli nid to learn those basic basic things.. if not.. wat wil happen to my family.. there is no turnin point.. marriage reli ain't a joke.. it is real thing.. a way tat no turnin back.. avthings u do.. muz think bout it.. over n over n over again.. LOVE change avthing.. LOVE..

DREAMS #2

Today i dream bout my sport car.. dono when i can hav a chance to bought it.. actually tis blog oso same lik my daily diary.. i like sports car.. i wanted to hav 1.. a speed, fierce, nice GTR.. hehehe.. but things come diff when tok to life.. is GTR my life? or GOD n family? hehehe.. sure answer is my Beloved Lord JESUS.. taking JESUS as first.. wat bout 2nd? i think is my home.. i wanted a double storey.. n i noe GOD wil prepared for me.. or mayb is a triple.. hehehe.. when my home sweet home arriv.. then is prepared for marriage.. nid alot of cash to prepare o.. hehehe.. i reli love her so much.. i wanted to b wit her as long i can.. she is not the oni 1 i hav.. but she is the oni woman tat i wanted to be wit.. sure my mum cant be excepted.. hahaha.. how many kids wil i hav.. i wanted to hav 2boys 2 gals.. hehehe.. totally is equal.. a big semi-D after marriage for few years.. then how bout a nice toyota alphard to bring all my family member out for dinner or mayb shoppin.. nice 1.. i love it.. then mayb my GTR? oso can la.. i think if all goes smooth.. i think around 40 i can get my GTR ba.. or mayb older.. hehehe.. i juz wanted to let all guys noe.. those u dream.. n those u wanted so much.. isn't is d fis thing tat v muz hav.. 40years old.. i think around tat time.. my heart cant support for speed car.. i wanted a healthy family.. a nice home.. n i wanted JESUS to be wit me n my family always.. i wanted to love GOD more.. but seems lik.. not doin it so hard.. i wanted to doin it more.. more n more.. wanted more..

My Life #1

For so many years i din write diary or blog edi.. tis is wat i do when i was young..
Totally is a diff thing when something change.. is hard to take off thorns tat pierce into ur heart..
i love the time when i was so pure i love.. so simple mind.. but things goes diff when things
happen.. not to mention anything past.. but those thorns reli change ur pure heart.. u become a
diff person from tat day onwards.. i wil start writin from today.. not bout ppl to understand me
more.. but for my life.. those i write here.. is for me to learn something.. i wil understand n clear
bout wat hav i done.. is tis right or wrong.. m i telling the truth or im a liar.. m i good or bad.. m i
hardworkin or lazy.. m i normal or crazy.. how much do i noe myself?? start from zero.. avthing
wil b juz fine for me..