sad #3

today i so noob again.. seems lik always forget bout something.. weird ya.. juz lik not listenin carefully.. not using d heart to hear wat ppl say.. izit my heart or is tis my personality.. i dono at all.. i wish i could b more alert.. be more caring.. wat should i do.. im not sure wat i thinkin.. wat i want to do.. i juz noe i nid to love her more.. but how.. how to do it? m i always sad or unsatisfied hav 2put it away? or mayb im doin the wrong thing.. y m i sad? y m i unsatisfied? i don understand her? or mayb.. i din see through her heart? i nid to understand her feelings.. i nid to be more caring.. i nid to hear wat her heart wanted to say.. i nid to make my mind same lik her.. but i noe i haven done all tis yet.. izit my prob or hers? i think mayb is mine.. i reli nid her patience to teach me.. i no i noob.. but i do reli hope she stil got hope for me.. i don wan her to let go of me.. i scare.. i scare.. GOD reli put a wonderful woman by my side.. she care me.. she noe my nids.. she love me.. she scold me to let me learn.. she reli noe my situation.. she is reli 1of the best woman.. i love her.. i don wish to lose her.. guys reli nid to step back.. n say d sry thing.. i did so many things tat hurt her.. i reli dono bout it.. i stil nid experience.. i tot a joke reli a joke.. but some joke reli cant spit it out a bit.. it reli wil bring disaster.. now i noe.. i slowly understand.. she make me more understand bout her.. i beg for her forgiveness.. i reli ain't a good bf.. but i noe.. she loves me.. she wil teach me.. n GOD wil take care of me too.. b4 i b a husband of some1.. i reli nid to learn those basic basic things.. if not.. wat wil happen to my family.. there is no turnin point.. marriage reli ain't a joke.. it is real thing.. a way tat no turnin back.. avthings u do.. muz think bout it.. over n over n over again.. LOVE change avthing.. LOVE..